Hello Poets and Poetesses,

My birthday is coming up, July 24th. Fifty trips around the sun. Do I get frequent flyer bonus? A gold sun dial? I share this birth date with my soon-to-be 18 year old son, Mike', the best birthday present I ever got. Just wanted you all to know.

APAL Poets Guide:

All events are free, unless otherwise noted. Some venues request donations for featured poets.

1. Monday, July 13 - Southside Poetic Action Series, Jovita's Restaurant y Cantina at 1619 South First, from 7-9 p.m

2. Tuesday, July 14 - Ruta Maya Coffee House, 4th & Lavaca. APAL open mic, hosted by Sara and Mark, sign up at 6:30 pm. fmi, e mail maslow_at_flash.net

3. Tuesday, July 14 - Electric Lounge, 302 Bowie,,, home of Austin's weekly SLAM. $2 admission. Sign up as early as 8 pm. compete for $50.fmi call 476-FUSE or show up and ask someone.

4. Wednesday, July 15 - Movements Gallery Movements Gallery, 211 E. 6th St. BYOB: Blast Your Own Breath at Tammy Gomez hosts, 9-10:30 pm. tejana.tongue_at_mail.utexas.edu

5. Thursday, July 16 - the new yoga space, 1122 C South Lamar, 7:30 pm (in the same shopping center with Heart of Texas Music and New Age Books and Big Steve's Gym, yo!). John Herndon reads from his chapbook "Road Trip Through The Four Spheres" (Mike and Dale Press, $5). FMI, e mail jherndon_at_austin.cc.tx.us

6. Saturday, July 18 - Quackenbush's Coffee House, 2120 Guadalupe. Saturday Afternoon Live Poetry, APAL open mic, hosted by Diane Fleming. Sign up at 3 pm. Featured poet: Ed Glover. fmi, e buddydog_at_texas.net

7. Tuesday, July 21 - Ruta Maya Coffee House, 4th & Lavaca. APAL open mic, sign up at 6:30 pm. Beginning this week, the hosts are proud to feature 1998 Austin Slam Team member - Susan B. A. Somers-Willet. Hosted by Sara Sutterfield Winn and Maslow. FMI, contact maslow_at_flash.net

8. Tuesday, July 21 - Electric Lounge at 302 Bowie. Weekly Slam, winner takes $50 home. Sign up as early as 8 pm. $2 admission. FMI, call 476-FUSE.

9. Wednesday, July 22 - Borders Books and Tapes Borders on the Word, 10225 Research (Hwy 183) 7:30 pm. feature Stazja McFadyen. Followed by round robin open mic. Barbara Carr, Host. FMI 795-9553

10. Wednesday, July 22 - Cornerstone, 7:30 to 9 pm, emcee'd by Scott Wiggerman. Scheduled to read on July are Scott Wiggerman, Joelie Cruz, Jack Brannon, and Maria Limon. FMI, contact Scott Wiggerman at 467-0678 or

wigg119_at_flash.net

10. Wednesday, July 22 - Movements Gallery, 211 E. 6th St. BYOB: Blast Your Own Breath at Tammy Gomez hosts, 9-10:30 pm. tejana.tongue_at_mail.utexas.edu

11. Saturday, July 25 - Saturday Afternoon Live Poetry at Quackenbush's, 2120 Guadalupe. APAL open mic, sign up at 3 pm. Featured poet: Cynthia Good. FMI e mail buddydog_at_texas.net

Featured poetry - Theme: Leaving the Cuckoo's Nest -- Psychiatry

Next week's theme: The Elephant Room/Tony Campese (a local jazz legend)

Before presenting the poems, I'm going to indulge in editorial comment. Thanks to all who have permitted me to use your works. I apologize to those of you whose submissions were not included. Space is a consideration, and more poems were submitted this week than any time since themes were introduced to the featured poetry section of the newsletter. I will follow up at a later time with a sequel on this theme.

The subject itself has been on my mind more than a little. For two years I did volunteer work with a growing sector of the population, homeless youth, in conjunction with a social service agency. During that time I conducted an informal survey and discovered that, prior to hitting the streets, over 80% of my kids had received some form of psychology/psychiatry/ psychotherapy treatment. And the same percentage, I discovered, are, or had been, artists. One girl was institutionalized specifically because of a poem she wrote that alarmed some person in a position of authority. Three young adults I interviewed, each from a different state, told of such similars spiels by psychologist school counselors, of being the worst case of schizophrenic manic-depressive the counselor had ever seen, I wondered if this was from a script.

For 20 years I have supported Citizens Commission on Human Rigthts®, an international organization established in 1969 with chapters in over 25 countries, which recently released a public service publication entitled Psychiatry Manipulating Creativity -- In the name of help. (http://www.cchr.org)

Two other creative souls I have the good fortune of knowing have novels related to this theme. I recommend you check out In the Name of Help by Diane Klein (www.dianeklein.com) and Dawn's Revenge by L.D. Sledge, available through bookstores near you.

And now on to the poetry. Comment is welcome.

1. Opie Houston featured at Barnes and Noble in the Arboretum last Wednesday and read this piece:

Therapy-Writing Session #3

it's the world that's messed up

and you shrinks and therapists

telling me I need to write this junk down

how can I write when I'm shaking so bad

and you're telling me I need

to paint images after they took my paints

because I kept making dirty pictures on walls

instead of on those sheets of paper

somebody pulled out of a computer trash barrel

and you tell me to read about a little

red wheelbarrow and how important it is

and that crap about somebody eating plums

because they were cold and sweet

and about that idiot howling in the street

because he wasn't happy with how the world

treated him because he wouldn't accept

the way the world is and showed them

but he was wrong too since it's

the only world we've got and . . .

God, give me the strength

to get my paints back so I can paint

at least one life-size woman

who'll not laugh at me,

who'll accept me in my dreams

like Mom did, sometimes,

and not castrate me like she did,

sometimes . . .

to change the things I can

and hold me without expecting

something in return

and won't destroy my gifts . . .

to accept the things I can't

. . . and won't just take off

when it feels good to . . .

and wisdom to know the difference.

. . . and you're no different than anybody else

you're all the same--different, like me . . .

different . . . we're all different . . .

you're different . . . I'm different . . .

we're all the same but different . . . help me,

damn it . . . HELP ME!

© 1985 opie r. houston

2. Jennifer Williams co-hosted with me at "New Voices". I asked her to submit this poem.

ILL

ill faced

and ill graced.

misery.

Doctor, Doctor come quick. We need you, your big dick

is necessary for complexity toward human fallacy. Phallacy

is just what we need: factory greed, permanent steed.

Come on bring it out, you know what we're talking about.

It's machine angst, medical prankst-

pumpitintheveins

pumpitintheveins

you must take these reins and control.

Control, because insanity void has taken toll.

I can't stand this one.

I can't stand by.

ARE YOU LISTENING DR. QUACK?

Heart attack, falling back

I think this one will crack.

All in a nutshell?

Not too well. So take them to HELL.

AHA!

You Doctors have come one

come all

to see them fall

to prison box

with prison blocks

and momentary electric shocks.

Mental diseases

have puzzle pieces

and uno cards

with mental shards.

And the pastel walls with the

calls ...

I can't stand them,

I can't stand by

to hear humans cry

true human cries.

Don't you get it yet? This one is not a puppet. This one's not one of

us. There is nothing to-

discuss.

(finis)

3. Sara Sutterfield Winn, three time slam winner, knocked me out with this performance piece. In my humble editorial opinion, this IS the million decibal voice of the poet winning the shouting match. From Sara's chapbook Waiter, There's A Shaman In My Soup:

Biological Boiling Point

You can tell the Prozac people that we're through with visions of sugarplums,

it just isn't working, it's like placebos in the middle of a package of birth control pills

it can't make us tick. We are clocks, underwater - our

7:30 am alarm comes up sluggishly in bubbles where it pops on ears that don't understand its language and beneath its floating there in the deep water there are

episodes of 3-2-1 Contact and Electric Company,

animated snippets of Sesame Streets where we learned to count to twelve and wonder at the subtle nuances of the letter "Q,"

and can you tell me how to get back there, to dive down deep past the minute hand into that time when our only concept of evil was Boss Hogg -

'cause you hit your early twenties, you know? and right about the time that schizophrenia is supposed to set in you find yourself sitting in 24-7 coffee dives or bars that look distinctly unlike Cheers, dressed all in black and struggling to communicate a certain nameless restlessness in smoke-signal poetry that shakes the crossbeams and makes your thighs shudder

but you can't move you're shaking so hard -

and for the first time you wonder if crack cocaine is really that bad 'cause you're failing the classes you hate and failing the classes you like and you think about a book you read once about the link between poets and insanity and alcoholism and you know its crap, you know you're okay, and you tell the guy at Conoco that as you buy four bottles of Merlot and a package of Hostess cupcakes, the ones with the white spiral on the outside, and he smiles and gives you change....

and that's the thing you need the most, man, change, because suddenly the only time you're truly happy is when you're driving because that's the moment suspended in time

when you have the future and the past and you're fully in between them and there is a moving sense of perfection and security and you find yourself singing all the songs with this great loud voice that's starting to fail because you've been screaming for miles and you're only just begging for a little bonfire for a little less of the middle of the road.

But you can't ask me what shirt to wear, don't whine to me that you're unsure that you're lost that you can't seem to find your way out, you're trapped you're tired you're confused you can't find the red exit sign at the back of the hall, don't hand me your emotional map and a pencil because

I've

been

there, babe.

in that room, where you suddenly found yourself pushing pins into a doll that resembles your mother and then the moment that you started to cry because you

really love your mom, you know? I've been there.

And I can tell you what should happen next, baby

where to go and how it works...

you begin to pack your things, 1 shirt, 2 pairs of jeans, 3 books, 3 cassette tapes, 2 packs of cigarettes, 1 toothbrush and thirty dollars and you climb into that piece of shit you drive and

YOU JUST LEAVE, feeling the bars begin to fade and a slow cinematography effect healing wounds on your body - you crank the stereo and let everybody else feel modern psychiatry's voodoo pinpricks, 'cause you're done.

So little coffee mama, put away your black, because I saw the sun set over my dashboard yesterday and it was like God and Poetry all at once, I've already left into the raw, down into the deep I fell past the minute hand into the zen asphalt nowhere,

Yeah, I just left, and I laughed, and I opened a bottle of beer,

and out across the mesas somewhere in the center of a desert

there is a bottle of Prozac

lying on the sand.

© 1998 Sara Sutterfield Winn

4. And finally, Larry Jaffe has written one of those "tell it like it is" poems that I've loved reading, particularly to you artists who have listened and nodded your heads in recognition and understanding.

psychiatric disorder

rather than find the cause

they liquidate the present

saturate it with psyche

killing drugs

draining the spirit

a manufactured maze

of desperation

caused by an iv solution of

thorazine

lithium

prozac

ritalin

anything to keep them quiet

anything to stop the awful noise

of a spirit screaming

instead of finding the reason

for such pain

that unseen claw raking at their souls

the hidden killers

often quiet and unseen

silently taking in their prey

rather than find the cause

they liquidate the present

suffocating the artist

with cannabis dreams and

lsd nightmares

drowning them

with creative cocktails

that numbs the mind

and imprison the soul

remove the artist from

her daily rounds of

saving society

the artist is the doctor

the cure to the culture

imbuing it with fresh breaths

and rainbow visions

rather than find the cause

they liquidate the present

spiking the waters of love

with disruption and hate

head shrinker-drugging solutions

to social maladies

societal unrest

drug it

alcohol it

drown it in its sorrow

rather than find the cause

they liquidate the present

the bull elephant

has a thorn in his foot

they shoot the elephant

why don't they just extricate the thorn

rather than find the cause

they liquidate the present

castigate tomorrows

trade in the bill of rights

for 10 ki's of hash

trade in the bill of rights

for a prescription pad

rather than find the cause

they keep liquidating the present

© 1998 lgjaffe

www.lgjaffe.com

Chapbooks/Books

1. Road Trip Through The Four Spheres by John Herndon (Mike and Dale's Press, $5)--one poem, 23 pages. Some may have heard John read this on his (former) radio program. jherndon_at_austin.cc.tx.us

2. Success Stories: Poems and Essays by Richard Cole. (Limestone Books, $11.95) 89 pages, contents divided into Part One - The East Village and Part Two - Brooklyn. "Success Stories is a great book, and I don't use the word lightly...The voice is unforced, direct, surprising." Louis Simpson, Pulitzer Prize winner. richard_cole_at_globeset.com

Announcements

1. 1998 National Poetry Slam Aug 19-22. CALL FOR VOLUNTEERS. Plenty are needed, before and during the Nationals. Sonya Feher, volunteer coordinator, is holding a volunteer meeting on Tuesday, July 14 at 6 pm at the Electric Lounge. Whether you want to help a little or a lot, be at the volunteer meeting, or contact Sonya at 326-9692 or ssfeher_at_yahoo.com.

2. Texas Slam Invitational (First Annual) Saturday night at Electric Lounge, phew!

Austin Team won out, followed by Dallas, San Antonio, Ft. Worth. (But wowie, from San Antonio, Mr. Sanchez' "Poemophobia" is worth hearing more than twice).

3. Artists of a Different Caliber

This is a touring art exhibit featuring work that turns guns into beauty. They are seeking poetry (and poets) with work that speaks of alternatives to violence. If you've got poetry that uses words against violence then submit your work to Carol Koss

1819 B NW 42nd Street

OKC, OK 73118-2229

or e-mail cpkoss_at_aol.com

We will be using all the poems submitted. The two ways (so far) we will display them are verbally and visually. The evening of the opening (Sept. 11th), all poets who have submitted their work will be invited to read it at Harvey's Cafe (19th and Portland in OKC) at 8:30 p.m. The opening at the gallery will run from 5 until 8 p.m. If poets are not able to be present to read their own work, someone will read it for them. In addition, all poems submitted will be on exhibition, with the metalsmith pieces, at the gallery during the run of the show. We may put a poem or two in promo flyers and in our newsletter, and/or read at poetry readings/ events leading up to September 11th. All rights revert to and from the beginning - belong to the poet. If we plan to use any of the poetry in any other way we will get permission from the poets involved.

4. From St. Pete's Cockney Rebel host, the vivacious Shana:

"GO STAZJA!!!

We sure are going to miss you at the Rebel tonight. Thanks for being part of a poetry renaissance at that open mike night; just a few months ago we couldn't quiet people down enough to listen...now, people are opening up their ears eagerly!

Are the poetry venues you listed also acoustic music rooms? I ask this because I am dead-set on coming to Austin this year and would like to find a few places to play.

Glad we're in touch...keep knockin' 'em dead!

P.S. I am going to read the Independence Day poems from your mailer at the Rebel tonight! :-)

Your pal,

SHANA :-)

XOXOXOX"

5. From Genevieve Van Cleve, Austin Slam Master:

"Pass this on to those who may need to see that our good work is not going unnoticed.

Love, gen."

"Garrison Keillor has more fans than Marilyn Manson. Golfers still wear green pants, pink shirts and yellow sweaters. Lots of people sign up as transplant donors. Volunteers are bringing wolves and grizzly bears back to Yellowstone. (Do `not' feed the grizzly bears.) Slam poetry is the new fad among the 20-somethings, and it's really neat stuff. (Only 50-somethings still say "neat.")"

Molly Ivins is a columnist for the `Star-Telegram.'

6. Weekly Slam winner last week, once again, Diane Fleming. Congrats, Diane

7. Cornerstone is about to embark on a monthly summer/fall

poetry series, with the first one coming up July 22. These readings,

from 7:30-9:00 at Cornerstone, will take place the fourth Wednesday of

each month. July will be emceed by Scott Wiggerman, August by Cindy

Huyser, September by David Meischen, and October by Meera Sundrum. Each

reading will feature four gay/lesbian poets. Scheduled to read on July

22 are Scott Wiggerman, Joelie Cruz, Jack Brannon, and Maria Limon.

Schedules for the other dates are not yet complete, so if anyone is

interested in reading, please contact Scott Wiggerman at 467-0678 or

wigg119_at_flash.net

8. Contests: Date: Wednesday, July 1, 1998 12:58:45 PM

From: writers_at_pathcom.com

Subj: Pass the word - cash prize of $100.00, $50.00, $25.00

If you are affiliated with a magazine or writer's group we hope you will

pass the word on to members and friends.

You can now find the Winners of the Third International Poetry Contest at:

http://www.pathcom.com/~writers/winners3.htm>

The next contest will have a 1st, 2nd, and 3rd cash prize of $100.00,

$50.00, $25.00 plus 3 honourable mentions all published in SEEDS Poetry

Magazine.

See contest information below.

Hidden Brook Press is pleased to announce our fourth poetry contest. We

hope that you will participate and/or pass the information on to some one

who may be interested. We hope you will join us at our webside.

<www.pathcom.com/~writers/homepage.html>

All the best from Hidden Brook Press.

Richard Grove - SEEDS Editor / Publisher

That's it for this week. Anyone wanting off the mailing list, e mail me.

And if you know of someone you would like added to the list, also e mail me.

Much love,

Stazja

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 04:49:56 EDT

From: Janhouston

To: Stazja

In a message dated 98-07-13 01:22:24 EDT, you write:

<<

Before presenting the poems, I'm going to indulge in editorial comment. Thanks to all who have permitted me to use your works. I apologize to those of you whose submissions were not included. Space is a consideration, and more poems were submitted this week than any time since themes were introduced to the featured poetry section of the newsletter. I will follow up at a later time with a sequel on this theme.



The subject itself has been on my mind more than a little. For two years I did volunteer work with a growing sector of the population, homeless youth, in conjunction with a social service agency. During that time I conducted an informal survey and discovered that, prior to hitting the streets, over 80% of my kids had received some form of psychology/psychiatry/ psychotherapy treatment. And the same percentage, I discovered, are, or had been, artists. One girl was institutionalized specifically because of a poem she wrote that alarmed some person in a position of authority. Three young adults I interviewed, each from a different state, told of such similars spiels by psychologist school counselors, of being the worst case of schizophrenic manic-depressive the counselor had ever seen, I wondered if this was from a script.



For 20 years I have supported Citizens Commission on Human Rigthts®, an international organization established in 1969 with chapters in over 25 countries, which recently released a public service publication entitled Psychiatry Manipulating Creativity -- In the name of help. (http://www.cchr.org)



Two other creative souls I have the good fortune of knowing have novels related to this theme. I recommend you check out In the Name of Help by Diane Klein (www.dianeklein.com) and Dawn's Revenge by L.D. Sledge, available through bookstores near you.



And now on to the poetry. Comment is welcome.

*******

staz,

Fantastic plug for CCHR and the Psychiatry Manipulating Creativity ! Your background with homeless youth made an impressive intro.

And the poems this week are KILLER ! Heavy -duty newsletter !! You might want to pass on appropriate sections to CCHR Int, Boz and Jane Allen. I have email addresses if you need.

I didn't know L.D. had a book !

ML,

Jan

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 07:40:00 EDT

From: CPKoss

To: Stazja

Happy Birthday on July 24th. I may not be near a computer then, but on the road heading for Santa Fe, so I will send the message now. I am approaching 57 faster than I can move from one end of the house to the other. If you want any tips on dealing with having a set of references and allusions so different from most of the people around you, let me know.

The poetry on the theme of leaving the cuckoo's nest, was fascinating and moving. I partially agree with its thesis. But, I know a number of therapists and psychologists who do not function this way, who use the arts as a tool of and path to healing. I think that psychiatrists (and, again, I don't want to include all in this category) are the ones who tend to medicate creativity into a small box.

I was recently in Eureka, CA and attended an art show at a center called The Ink People. The exhibit was the result of an artist working with other artists who had been or were very ill. Their illnesses encompassed AIDS, breast cancer, alcoholism, depression, et al. Visual art and poetry came from these sessions. My impression was that many of the artists were or had been in therapy as well and they had gained from it in terms of their art, rather than been depleted by it.

I have a number of friends who are dance therapists and art therapists. They are dancers and artists first, therapists second. They work with local mental health organizations who appear to be increasingly open the creativity/healing connection.

For a number of years (until just recently), I was part of a group that met every Wednesday evening. The group was led by a friend who had been a modern dancer,

(and danced for years with the Eric Hawkins' Modern Dance Company in New York), is currently a visual artist (painter / weaver) and has studied Jungian philosophy and psychology. The weekly sessions included movement, meditation, writing and visual art. Not only did therapists often send their clients to participate in this group, they were frequently participants as well. This friend also did extended workshops, often spanning many weekends, working with dreams, personal landscapes, and more things than I want to list here. These programs have been discontinued since Dena is now caring for her dying mother. While the workshops and programs are no longer in place, the recognition for them by the mental health community is still in place. I find that encouraging.

So, while I agree that creativity is often mistrusted and misunderstood by many professionals, I think a balance is needed, and those members of this profession who recognize and honor creativity appreciated and recognized.

Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Carol Koss

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 10:11:44 EDT

From: drfleming_at_hotmail.com (Diane Fleming)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com



Great newsletter!

By the way - Richard Cole (the guy whose book you mentioned - Success

Stories - is the feature Aug. 22. He is EXCELLENT, if you haven't heard

him.

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 10:09:05 EDT

From: cemgilbert_at_earthlink.net (Christine Gilbert)

Reply-to: cemgilbert_at_earthlink.net

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

Hi,

Happy coming-up birthday and having-given-birth day. My mom and

youngest brother have the same birthday. I didn't know you had a son

almost 18. I have two sons, 21 and 18. The youngest graduated from

Austin High this year and is going to Yale and will play football there;

unfortunately they don't give scholarships and we're trying to figure

out the most economical type of loans.

Would you please add my older son to your mailing list? I managed to

get him to Fado's where he read. He writes a lot of poetry and I've been

encouraging him to try some of the open mikes. Jon GIlbert<jjj_at_io.com>

Thanks.

Christine

Subj: RE: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 09:59:45 EDT


Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 07:39:11 EDT

From: candid_at_istal.com (candid)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com



Hello ,,,,thanks for return mail...I"m sorry I haven't replied much before..Any friend of Jessi's is definitely on my menu to email back..She is wonderful...!!! Yes, that answers your question if I am her friend...lol It is good to hear from you...Hope you enjoyed your stay in Florida and had a warm welcome. If not, come back and stop in Tallahassee...One day , hopefully jess can make it here....Take her for some good cappuchino and "smut " reading....

:) Later.....email back if you have time. ----------

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 04:42:46 EDT

From: tedslade_at_kingsave.demon.co.uk (Ted Slade)

Reply-to: tedslade_at_kingsave.demon.co.uk

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

Hi Stazja

Apropos your theme this week, do you know about this London

organisation?

SURVIVORS' POETRY

"promoting poetry by survivors of mental distress"

Diorama Arts Centre, 34 Osnaburgh Street, London NW1 3ND

I picked up on them during my trawl for information for The Poetry Kit.

Don't know too much except that they publish poetry by people surviving

mental illness (latest is "Out of Bedlam" - an anthology edited by

Matthew Sweeney and Ken Smith) and organise readings around the country.

All the best

Ted Slade

http://www.poetrykit.org/

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 04:31:33 EDT

From: Janhouston

To: Stazja

In a message dated 98-07-13 01:22:24 EDT, you write:

<<

My birthday is coming up, July 24th. Fifty trips around the sun. Do I get frequent flyer bonus? A gold sun dial? I share this birth date with my soon-to-be 18 year old son, Mike', the best birthday present I ever got. Just wanted you all to know.

>>

*******

Happy Happy in advance, dear fellow 50's good-looker !

July is my big family birthday month too, with hubby Guy on 26th and first-born Dana

(turning 30 !!) July 30th.

How old is your daughter ?

Ml, Jan

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 06:45:09 EDT

From: TigerIily

To: Stazja

morning staz ..

just a quick note ... very full newsletter ... and you got it done! am sure it will get a great response ... intense theme ... good stuff...

have a great one...

lily*

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 01:34:47 EDT

From: cq_at_offworlds.com (offworlds.com)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com (Stazja McFadyen)

>Hello Poets and Poetesses,

>

>My birthday is coming up, July 24th. Fifty trips around the sun. Do I get

>frequent flyer bonus? A gold sun dial? I share this birth date with my soon-

>to-be 18 year old son, Mike', the best birthday present I ever got. Just

>wanted you all to know.

Happy birthday to you and your son. ;)

Christopher Quinn

Subj: RE: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 02:05:24 EDT

From: larry_at_jaffe2.com (larry jaffe)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

this is a great issue staz.. i especially like sara's poem.. it is mega

terrifc...

ml,

me*

staz,

Fantastic plug for CCHR and the Psychiatry Manipulating Creativity ! Your background with homeless youth made an impressive intro.

And the poems this week are KILLER ! Heavy -duty newsletter !! You might want to pass on appropriate sections to CCHR Int, Boz and Jane Allen. I have email addresses if you need.

I didn't know L.D. had a book !

ML,

Jan

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 11:45:12 EDT

From: Nuyopoman

To: Stazja

Happsky Burrsky!

Other 50's this year: me (Bob Holman) and Sekou Sundiata and Marc Levin (who directed SLAM).

It's a great view.

Thanks for keeping me up w/ the Austin scene.

CU at National Slam!

elBoHo

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 12:00:26 EDT

From: tedslade_at_kingsave.demon.co.uk (Ted Slade)

Reply-to: tedslade_at_kingsave.demon.co.uk

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

Hi StazjaGood to know somebody takes notice of my stuff!

best

Ted

> I've gotten responses

> from Dublin and elsewhere in the UK, resulting from Poetry Kit's inclusion of

Subj: RE: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-07-13 12:37:33 EDT

From: bautista_at_bcm.tmc.edu (Marilyn Bautista)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com ('Stazja_at_aol.com')

Hi,

Just wanted to let you know I turn 50 this month and have a daughter

and son whose birthdays are the day before. Isn't life grand ?

Marilyn Bautista

Subj: Re:

Date: 98-07-13 16:05:13 EDT

From: oldfrank_at_juno.com (jimmy smith)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

I do have a white silk Yamaka with Kenig&Harmony Glubin, printed in pink

letters, from when they got married, my wife was jewish from the fairfax

district of hollywood, till I took her to church with me one time and

found out she had been a closet christian all the time (she still makes

the worlds finest chopped chicken liver) and at passover I usually go to

Davids house and eat lots of food whenever people finally get there...

these guys pull the car over and park when the sun goes down so sometimes

it takes them awhile to finish walking over.. most of them were officers

in the isreali army and have many interesting war stories to tell, also

some of them have imigrated from russia and a group of olympic wrestlers

show up and each make thier favorite dish, ploaf and stuff I can't even

pronounce but have no trouble eating, I'm the token goy at these

occasions but nobody seems to mind and everybody is willing to teach me

jewish,

a priest and a rabbi were talking one day and the priest says "hey, it's

kinda chilly, let's walk over to my church and talk some more"

the rabbi says "OK" and they walk over to the church.

when they get inside an alter boy holding some kind of holy pole walks

by, and the priest leans over to the rabbi and says

"I sure would like to screw Him.."

and the rabbi says

"Outta what?"

oh well, good taste will never be my downfall,

love you mucho, and got the newsletter today, great topic and great

choices for the poems. (but you didn't run my stunning peice about the

ice skating squirrell, harumph)

take care

jimmy

Subj: Re: announce re slam volunteer meeting

Date: 98-07-15 09:41:04 EDT

From: drfleming_at_hotmail.com (Diane Fleming)

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

Stazja,

Well, show me what you want to use. I don't know if I want to belabor

all this. Let me think about it.

Diane

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large

Date: 98-07-16 06:33:49 EDT

From: gemartt_at_mail.utexas.edu

Reply-to: gemartt_at_mail.utexas.edu

To: Stazja_at_aol.com



Stazja the Poetess wrote:

> Hello Poets and Poetesses,

>

> My birthday is coming up, July 24th. Fifty trips around the sun. Do I get

> frequent flyer bonus? A gold sun dial? I share this birth date with my soon-

> to-be 18 year old son, Mike', the best birthday present I ever got. Just

> wanted you all to know.

>

Happy Birthday, Stazja! I hope it is the best ever!

Thanks for your continuing newsletters - they are an excellent service to our

community. Thank you also for the recent edition (#36) which included the poem by

Opie Houston.

Could you include the following announcement in your next newsletter?

The Past Poetry Project will read "20 Sonnets" (featuring Shakespeare, Donne,

Browning, Rossetti, Yeats, Frost, Millay, Neruda, and others). This free reading

will be on Saturday, July 25th, a 2pm, at the Windsor Village Branch Library, 5851

Berkman Drive. For directions, please call 928-0333.



Thanks!



Gary

Subj: poetry

Date: 98-07-16 11:36:46 EDT

From: nancy.dembowski_at_utoronto.ca (Nancy Dembowski)

Reply-to: nancy.dembowski_at_utoronto.ca

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

Dear Stazja,

Thanks so much for your email mag. It's wonderful. You asked for a poem about mental illness so I'm

sending this one along though it looks as though you already published this issue I don't know if your

keeping up the subject.

Living With Shirley in Georgetown

Turbaned guy keeping guard outside that Indian dive,

bubble gum hymns sailing in through drapeless windows, care of Winstons,

and some kid still sleeping in the basement when we moved in,

but we were lucky to be living in Georgetown.

She was dancing at the Good Guys, turning tricks on the side.

I worked a respectable lie.

Still wonder how it was she could foretell that night,

speaking in the low light of some middle class cafe,

of her friend and how that happens sometimes.

Must have been her pricey shrink. Had that fancy palace on the M Street side.

Kept a teenage junkie girlfriend always bringing home other men.

Invited us to porno parties and she went.

Lots of people coming through our doors those days,

although Andrea was the only one who stayed,

with his androgynous ways and hopes of getting laid.

About the time I took up, with that sage I'd picked up,

I began to stay up all night long.

Used to pull my hair and watch her bare upon the stage.

And then Walt lying on the couch for three whole days,

with his magic mirror and his fifty dollar straw,

eating all those boxes of my Christmas candy.

I suppose, that didn't help.

Those friends of Andy Williams', we met at the Four Seasons.

Sent their limosine. Where we'd change our hose,

gossip long distance on their car phones, always ringing off the wall for her.

Making dates, and breaking dates, and they somehow thinking it was my fault,

when she didn't make them. But then I did go that one time.

Joined a Latin business man in his room at the Sheraton.

Afterward, hanging out in the lounge, bartender took me for a pro the way I acted.

But when we went to celebrate, I no longer liked to eat.

Lived on aloe vera juice and multi-minerals from the Herbal Life girl.

Doc bring me to sex nights at that Eighteenth Street bar,

big fat women squirting breast milk into jars,

little ugly guy with the scar, wanted to make me in the toilet.

Shirley swapping spit with waiter worked on Connecticut.

Lucky I met with God.

Shared his secrets. Took me on a shopping spree.

Brought me all those ugly dresses and a used car.

Shirley asking what was wrong with me. Why I didn't like her anymore.

Crying on her bed, saying she never wanted sex with all those men.

I took Lithium. Checked myself in.

Andrea claimed he was my kin, let him in to see me at the hospital.

Brought me some of his balloon dolls.

Although in the end, he wasn't a friend at all.

And she called. Gave me back the key,

and that was it for Georgetown Shirley and me.



This poem's been published in Word up

Spoken Word Poetry in Print

Edited by Jill Battson and Ken Norris - Key Porter Books

It was also performed by Lisa Ryder in Put Me Away produced by Bald Ego.

I retain copy right so you can publish it and you don't have to mention either of these if you decide to

print it.

I was wondering if you've had a chance to book a reading for me in Austin between July 31st and

August 7th (of course arriving and leaving dates probably aren't a good idea). I think Laura - my

girlfriend that I'm visiting - wants us to go some place for the week-end. I gave her your number - I

hope you don't mind - because she's got to make plans around the reading date. Anyway, it's great to

see someone working so hard at promoting poetry and it is fantastic that so much of the word is getting

out in Austin. How long has this been going on there? In Toronto there are a lot of readings but say

five or six years ago there were only two series. Thanks for all your help. I would say I would send

you my book but I seem to be so busy that I have not even mailed it to my family yet, so if I don't get

around to it I'll give you a copy when I meet you in Austin. Take care nancy dembowski

Subj: Re: Austin Poets at Large #36

Date: 98-08-01 18:31:40 EDT

From: cemgilbert_at_earthlink.net (Christine Gilbert)

Reply-to: cemgilbert_at_earthlink.net

To: Stazja_at_aol.com

Thanks.

Here's the press release.

Texas Nafas Poetry Show Release:

Texas Nafas, the poetry show produced by Farid Mohammadi, Christine

Gilbert, and Laura Baker continues running strong on Cable Channel 10,

Sundays at 9 p.m. The show being aired August 9, 16, 23, and 30 is a

special on slam poetry--competitive performance poetry--featuring Taylor

Mali, a national slam winner and great talent, and Marc Smith of

Chicago, the founder of slam poetry, as well as several other

outstanding slam poets. This slam poetry special is in coordination

with the 1998 National Poetry Slam to be held in Austin from August

19-22--the 9th annual national poetry slam. Big names attending the slam

include Marc Smith; Patricia Smith, four time national slam winner from

Boston; Danny Solis of Albequerque, Ellen Maybe of Southern California,

and a host of others. For more about the National Slam venues, schedule

of bouts, day events, late night events, etc., see the web site at

"http://slam.home.texas.net/98Nationals/welcome.htm". Also watch for two

Texas Nafas one-hour specials that will be aired at odd late hours on

Cable Channel 10, called "Un-Cut," featuring energetic venues at

Waterloo Ice House during the 1998 Austin International Poetry Festival.



cemgilbert_at_earthlink.net